Cute shoes

The other day I went to a discount store looking for shoes to wear to work. I barely remember what pair I was using as my go-to throw-on pair. Ultimately I needed a new pair of corporate casual dogs.

The style was a low cut boot made of leather(sorry vegans). They had a manufactured scuffed finish to them. I thought they were suited for business but edgy enough not to be considered formal attire. So I looked inside to see if they were my size, and they were a half size bigger than my foot. Its for work so I said who am I trying to convince that I have small feet, I am going to get these shoes because I think they are cute on me.

So I purchased them without trying tem on as they were already a size bigger, I dont need to try them on. Next day I start wearing the shoes. I sit at my desk for 10 hours so they barely got much testing aside from getting from my building to my car, and from my car to my office. So for the first week everything was fine.

The second week the left shoe started to feel hot. So I would take it off for a bit while at my desk. The third week it started giving me constant pain on my ring toe(I don’t know the toe nomenclature). I knew the shoes were tight, and uncomfortable but I kept wearing them for another month. They looked good and I couldn’t return them at this point so I decided to stick it out.

Then one day God sent an angel who decided to gift me a new pair of sneakers. They were unprofessional, they were like no sneaker I would usually wear as I mostly wore Converse styled sneakers, but oh my they were comfortable!

I felt as if I was walking on pillows. Maybe not pillows but maybe a hard mattress. Not like walking on alligator teeth like the last pair.

Many of us suffer in terrible relationships. Romantic and plutonic. They cause us so much pain and strife but we continue to punish ourselves because we are more concerned with how things appear or what we believe is expected of us. This is self inflicted torture ands a masochistic , loco way of behaving. I’d go as far as to say it is suicide as hardship is directly associated with shortened life span and poor health.

Don’t wait until 14 days. Send those shoes or people or whatever back to where they came from. You are not here to torture yourself to keep up appearances.